Thursday, November 25, 2010

This is Today

Is this Today? Often I ask this stupid question to myself. I don't remember, but when I was child there was a photo frame at my home. I used to ask my father,'Papa, what is written in this frame?' My father said, 'When you will grow then read it.' Actually it was written in English language and that time I didn't know anything about English.

There were written some lines about Today on white paper in that frame. The heading was 'This is Today.' Now, where is that frame nobody know from my family members. Today, I find that frame, but that is not. It has been misplaced.

Few days ago, after returning at my home in Indore from office at 2am, I was laying on the bed. Not feeling sleepy. I went on my past memories at childhood. Stucked at frame scene. I compared heading of those lines with my Today. Today I am getting 'This is Today.' We understand the value of today, when we lost it. I have lost my many todays, but don't want to lose it again. I am not loser. I accept, I have lost many things waiting for today. It is said,'To get something we have to lose something.' But there are few things remain I have not achieved so far.

Many people say to me,'Rajesh, today you are lucky. You are living enjoyable life. You have good job, good salary according job. you are tension free.' But tension free...??? No, besides job I have few tension. When I phone at my home, my mother says,'Beta (son), live without tension.' I know, I don't need any kind of tension. But when you live out of your home then some concerns are inevitable.

Today I think, I am tension free, No tension for spending money, no tension for getting up early in the morning and so on...Today I think, where am I? Is this final end of my future? No, no, no...this is not final end of my future. I want to move ahead. I want to do different in my life. My struggle for my future has not finished. My dreams have not fulfilled. Today is partially for me. This partially today is not mine. My today is waiting for me. It is calling me. I am moving towards them. It is saying, 'I am today.' I am smiling and looking it. I am saying, 'Wait, I am coming.' Yes, wait. I know tomorrow never waits, but today waits for better tomorrow.